I'm sure when I read it before I read it as one
of those trite sayings people of faith sometimes make: "I don't worry about all
that theology stuff - I just have faith."
Body:
I start a sermon series on prayer this Sunday
evening. I'm struggling a bit with my perspective. It's hard to preach about
prayer without sounding like I think I'm
good
at it.
Good
at
prayer?
I can't figure out if the idea of being
good at
prayer is presumptuous or just absurd. Maybe
like I'm good at tossing
mountains into the sea. Maybe like I'm good at breathing and pumping
blood.
Plenty of people have written
about prayer, about what parts of it are talking and what parts are listening to
God. The other night at Trinity, Tony Campolo spoke beautifully about prayer
bringing us to the "thin place," as the Irish monastics said, about "driving
back the animals," about bringing us into the presence of God. He quoted an
interview with Mother Theresa in which the interviewer asked her, "how do you
pray to God?" She replied, "I listen to God." The interviewer, flustered, asked,
"and what does God say to you?" She replied, "God listens to me. And if you
don't get that, I can't explain it to you."
Those who regularly pray develop the
sense that the best work of prayer is simply to center us, to bring us before
God. But let's face it: most of us wouldn't ever begin to pray at all if we
didn't feel a need to ask God for stuff.
So for me to even attempt to preach
about prayer, I feel I'll have to start with a disclaimer: I'm not "good at"
prayer. When it comes to daily spiritual disciplines, I feel I'm doing great
(for me) if I hit four days out of seven. I always feel like a hypocrite when I
talk about the importance of daily spiritual discipline, because I'm
lousy
at it. But I also know the difference between a day begun with prayer and a day
without. My grandfather read the same half-dozen psalms
every
day. He began
every
day by saying "this is the day the Lord has
made; let us rejoice and be glad in it." When he came home from the war, all but
one of his high school buddies had been killed. I think that verse meant
something different to him than it does to me. It drove him to give thanks daily
to God. When you look at his Bible, you see the darkened thumb prints from where
he turned the pages on those same few psalms every morning. It's like looking at
a path that someone's feet have worn in the grass, walking from the house to the
well and back, every single day for years on end.
Anyway, when I
am on
a spiritual disciplines roll, I like to use A
Guide to Prayer for All God's People. It follows the lectionary,
and each day begins with a psalm. Today's psalm, 131, floored me. I sat there
staring at it for a long time, trying to catch my
breath: My heart is not proud, O
Lord, my eyes are not
haughty. I do not concern
myself with great matters or
things too wonderful for me.
But I have stilled and
quieted my soul like a weaned
child with its mother. Like a
weaned child is my soul within
me. O Israel, put your hope in
the Lord, both now and
forevermore.
I know I've read
these words before, but they didn't stun me the way they did this morning. I'm
sure when I read it before I read it as one of those trite sayings people of
faith sometimes make: "I don't worry
about all that theology stuff - I just have
faith." But the image of the weaned child
captured me. I could see the baby who has finally learned that it won't die if
it doesn't get the breast. I heard, "shush - all shall be well." That's what I
would like to get out of prayer. To bring my laundry list of requests to God, to
bring my hunger and my anxiety, my theological questions, my frustration, and to
be
stilled.
I also hear something about spiritual
maturity implied in those verses. A weaned child is not an adult. She cannot
drive or take out a mortgage or maybe even speak. But she knows she won't die if
she doesn't get what she wants immediately.
Here is the tentative schedule for the
sermon series: 1. Pray Then in This Way: The
Lord's Prayer 2. Have Mercy: The Jesus
Prayer 3. Be Still and Know that I am God:
Centering Prayer 4. Active Prayer: Praying
and Doing
I know I blew it with the
Hell series, but this time I really do plan on getting these puppies recorded.
And I
do
still intend to go back and write a synopsis of the Hell series. After all, I
may want to repreach it someday.
edit:
How appropriate that my Dad just posted a piece on accountability. I
should have mentioned that I always do better with spiritual disciplines when I
have a someone else to check up on me. We just started a Covenant Discipleship
group for our Singles ministry, and I'm helping them launch. Accountability
groups provide me with the motivation to get my spiritual act together and to
pray regularly.